wow, it's been a loong loong time i haven't write my stories in this blog..
well, there was some kind of a strange feeling that i had yesterday..
hate that..
the one that a called a total jerk is the one that being nice to me, and he always like that..
he's the one who always pay attention, help me whenever i'm busy doing things in my own, asking me whether he could involved or not, while the other boys were doing their own selfish things and don't really care what am i doing that day..
why why? by writing this down, it doesn't mean that a have a special feeling *for once again* to him. NOO, totally. coz he's a jerk.
but the things that comes in my mind was..
why should that jerk becomes the one that really care?
and why the others boys just look like some useless human, that only participate when everything is done. only care about the product, not the process...
well, why is the reason that God's show me this kind of thing?
jerk --> being so nice, and totally a caring person => but he's still a jerk ._.
being in love with someone and being loved by someone is very complicated..
well, though i am surrounded by people that are in love, or having a relationship with someone special,
me just being here and there, alone, and i have no idea what am i looking for when it comes to love..
who's the candidate for the prince charming in my life? no idea,,
to be honest, sometimes i do feel envy with them coz they have a partner to share everything with...
( i still feel happy for them whenever they got happy bcoz of their partner :) )
but sometimes i doubt myself..
i don't really know who's the one that i want to be with..
but when i compare some boys with the "prince charming" that i always dream, no boys matched with that..
i guess i'm just a drama queen or a princess that stuck in a fairy tale that hoping for a "perfect" prince charming that can makes my life turn to be a happily ever after..
LOL, irony right?
don't know lah, i still think that => Love Hurts..
