this is a hard decission i guess. i don't know wheter it will be a good idea or not..
hmmfh, but i think i wanna let all the feelings go. i know that this is not easy, but for now this is the best choice.
I'M LOST. i don't know what should i do with this feeling, my possition, and also his attention...
actually i really want to disscuss it with my close friends, but i guess they don't have time to listen in my STUPID and not so important story..
i really need sum1 to talk to, but nobody cares with it..
all of my friends busy with their own life, they're new friends, their work or activities..
my brother, he's different now. not the brother that i used to know..
all of the things in his mind is what's good for him, and how to take attention from people in his surrounding and also his popularity..
HIS WORLD IS DIFFERENT FROM MINE..!!
and bcoz of the situation above ^^^^
i take a conclusion dat maybe i should end this STUPID story, i should not hoping to get the love from this boy, and i have to realize that he WON'T feel the same way like i do right now..
WAKE UP TI..!! without telling anybody, you SHOULD HAVE REALIZE that this boy DOES NOT and NEVER have a special feeling to you..!! he's kindness is just because he's the head class and you're his friend dat also his secretary. NOT BECAUSE HE LIKES YOU!!!
God, this is too hard..
writting all dis makes me cried already. i can't imagine dat i have to LET IT GO..
he's the one right now. it's just him. no one dat can makes me stop to hoping for his love, INCLUDING ARIEL. but i really have to END this soon :'(
the song that accompany me writting dis blog >>> CINTA SENDIRI - KAHITNA
maybe that's the perfect picture of my situation right now..!!
:((
