Is it REAL or JUST ANOTHER CRUSH...??!! (part 1)

sooo, confused!!
it begins with..

hmm, when the first time i enter the college, i met tis boy..
you know what, sometimes i feel like he's looking to me when he was smilling..
it's kinda freaking me up.

oh ya, we are in the same class which is IF-3404, and no longer after starting the real college, he become the head class and i become the secretary..

you knoe, i feel like i have interest in him. but, i just try to ignore it coz i don't know him and i think dat that's not important for me..
BUT, that feeling suddenly appear..

i don't kno when is it started, but the conversation between us starting with the wrong number thing!!!
first, i wanna ask him about the KSM, but unfortunatelly i contact the wrong number..
then i got his right number from the other friend, and starting then we are closely enough..

actually i don't know how will our relationship be..
but the different feeling appears when he said
"udah ngga usah di bales aja smsnya tiara. apa biar aku telfon yusufnya (the wrong number guy) aja biar dia ngga nelfon kamu lagi?"
gosh, dat's the sweetest things ever dat sum1 said to me *u may say that i'm too much for that, but it's reaal!!"

after dat we keep on texting, and sumtimes we texting until we falll asleep.

BUT..........

Fuck'in TIRED..!! *bad girl mode : ON*

i feel like my body wanna break into pieces. DX DX

it's started in august 2nd. that day, i went to telkom to register for dormitory, coz people say dat it's better to live in dorm than "ngekost". so i will try it lahh..

soo busy you knoe. from 11 o'clock i finish the 'TELKOM THINGS' (like the dorm, medical check-up, and buy uniform) . oh ya, FYI i have to put my uniform from monday to thursday. BACK TO SCHOOL GUYS. WHAT A FUN COLLEGE RIGHT?! argh,,

after finish all dat, i went to my cousin's house coz there were the 4o days after my 'ua' died.

kinda sad, ,but i'm not allowed to read the yassin coz i had period dat day.

and the yassinan thing finished at 9pm..

so i go back to Jakarta after i had drove my sister and my 'other ua' to their own house...

than i arrived at 12.30am. can you imagine dat?!

3rd august...

i wen to gian hypermart to buy things dat i will need for my life in the dorm, such a plate, bowl, glass, and other..

GUESS WHAT!! i buy the plate bowl and mu dat have a SESAME STREET on it. LOL, that's the only cartoon left. it reminds me of someone. u all know who lah XP

4rd august...

i went to the 'snake mart' aka pasar uler. i bought the electronics thing there. wow, so many laah. from rice cooker, hair dryer, and water heater. after that, i have to go back to Mega Bekasi Hypermall to buy things dat still missed. and it all done at 9pm.

wat a tiring preparation for the 'live alone' life. i have no idea wat will be happen on the OSPEK day!! WUAAA...

WHY IS IT SOOO HAAAAARD?!!! *frustrated*

aih2..

sick with all of the comment from all de people in my surrounding..

people said "tiara, look at your body! you become fatter yah! wat did you eat" , "you look like Annissa's mother twins", "you will take college in Bandung? wow, you will eat much there, and will be much fatter than now", "this is the yougest, how come she's fatter that the other sisters".

OMG, if i have a choice, i wouldn't want to have a fat body like dis.

I also want to have a slim, perfect, or the usual type of body for a teenage girls like me.

BUT, it's hard for me. i have been trying to change the shape of my body, but it need process. but they would not understand bout it. THEY NEVER FEEL WAT I FEEL..!!

now, i got an aerobic class in de morning, i don't eat rice for a week, almost every day i eat gado-gado. is it not enough?? should i feel more suffer than dis?? oh my LORD.

i'm tired with all the people comments, i'm tired to feel upset when the clothes that i loved didn't fit in my body, i'm tired with all dis stuff. oh God, please make it easier for me.

i really really want to SHOW to the people dat I CAN LOOSE SOME WEIGHT AND BECOME SLIMMER THAN BEFORE..!! hope it will become a reality :)

First time to TELKOM..!!

wow, feel so tired today..

hmm, i went to Telkom for registration in the morning, and i have to go back straight away to Jakarta to receive the certificate.

well, let me write and share my experience in Telkom..

first, i was feel so afraid coz the one dat serve us is the senior.

WOW, i thought they will be scary like a monsterr...

but i was wrong, they are very friendly, like i have already bcome their friends or sumthing,,.

i feel so comfortable there, is it mean that i meant to be there?? is it mean dat this are my future college?? still wondering bout dat actually...

hhmm, but there's a scene dat makes me feel 'Gosh, i wish u are mine'

(well, maybe that's too much) what i mean is i'm having fun when i talk to him, there's nothing serious, it's like i knew him already though i even don't know his name.

is dis mean dat i'm in love with him on the first sight?? REALLY?!

well this are the nice conversation we have. (i cut some of another people dialog)

*this is happen when i type my identity in the computer*

him: where's MIGS??

me : it's in Malaysia, kak. should i write malaysia next to MIGS??

him: no, just write the full word from that school

me : cannot. the column doesn't fit for that

him:okay, just put MIGS. wow, COOL!! MALAYSIA? how was the education there?? is it nice?

me : yup :D coz the teacher there always support their student when we are down..

him: that must be fun then. oh iya, what major do you take??

me : teknik informatika

him: haha, you're my junior then. i am in teknik informatika too XD

next scenee, (for this time i think i better used indonesian language)

me : kak, kalo ibu rumah tangga disingkatnya apa yah??

my mentor : ibu rumah tangga?? ibu RT de..

me : ibu RT kak?? ntar artinya lain lagii. hehehe, dsangka ibu rt bneran :P

my mentor : oh iya yah, hahaha. sbntar yah. ISMI..!!

him: knapa?? (he stand just beside me)

my mentor : ibu rumah tangga disingkatnya apa??

him: lah? udah jelas kan?? Ibu.. Rumah... Tangga.. jadinya I R T.

me :oh okok, hehe. (when i type i, the ibu RT comes out at the bottom)

him: hahaha, ada yang nulis ibu RT bneran. kocak, dodol bgt yang nulis XDD

"how well do you speak english?"

me : not really good actually. eh tapi2 kayaknya mentor aku yang ini deh, bukan anda. jadi sono gih sono. hahahaha :P

him: wuih, bahasa inggrisnyaa..!! haha, iya2 gw pergi..

when the other problems come..

me : ka, klo jaket almamater kira2 aku ukurannya apa yah?

my mentor : wuah, apa yah. hehe, aku S

the other mentor : aku M. ahahaa

my mentor : ismiiii, jaket lo ukurannya apaaa??

him: gw L. sgini nih L nya, mank klo di sekolah ukurannya apa?

me : kmren sih L.

him: yaudah, XL aja tulisnya. takutnya kekecilan :)

when i finished

me: makasih yah kak :D

him, and the other mentor : iya, sama2..

hahaha, that's all of the conversation we had..

guess i'm too much for this. aih2