i miss you.. T^T

hmm, i forgrt to write bout wat happened on Sunday :(

i met Rendy when i pass Jakarta street (on my way back from pelabuhan ratu)

i just saw him for a few seconds, and it's only from sides angle..

really miss him right now..

when i saw him, it feels like i wanna hug him you know..

seriously, i miss all de moment that i have with him..

i miss his voice, when he called me an asked my phone number (but i get it wrong bcoz i missed 1 number at the back)

i miss his attention, he followed me (when i have a reunion wif my close friends) just want to be close with me, he followed me until i have finished the reunion :(

i miss all bout him lah :((

am i stupid for dat??

i can't help dis feeling. it's hard to forget bout him, i dunno why..

ren, seandainya lo bukan cowok yg ngga bener mungkin gw ngga bakal ngerasa sakit kyak gini..

missing you so badly T^T

you make me smile again :)

it happens 2 days ago, while i had to take TPA test in SSC..

i take the test for about 3 hours..

ahh, wat a tiring job..

hmm, when i busy trying to get the answer for the stupid test, my teacher is trying to call ariel..

first thing on my mind : GOSH, will he comes here tonight?? please no..

but the fact is diferrent from wat i think..

he said to my teacher that he will come to SSC..

my first reaction : finish my TPA as fast as i can, so i would not go to the same class together with him..

and i made it. i'm de one dat come in the class first.

my teacher asked me to sit on de back beside Riza. no longer after that, ariel came.

unexpectedly, my teacher ordered him to sit on the back, and ask riza to moves.

i was like, OH MY GOD!! is dis a disaster or wat??

haha, i'm really scared that time..

tapi ternyata semua baik2 aja. dan yg bikin gw seneng, dia kembali kyak dulu, ngga dingin lagi sama gw. he just the way he was :)

thanks God, you have answered my prayer.

dan 1 lagi yang bikin gw seneng, muka dia lucu bgt pas dia juga ngga tau bacaan yg ada di soal bahasa inggris!! can't forget bout it XDXD

and de last, Mrs.Nurul says "Tiara sama Ariel harusnya udah jago yah bahasa inggrisnya!!"

i dun get it wat she means actually..

dan gw juga ngga tau knapa hari itu banyak hal berkaitan antara gw sama dia..

pas gw naik angkot yah, baru nengok ke kiri, yg gw liat muka dia pas lagi naik motor (kebetulan motornya disamping angkot gw) XDXD

hmm, i dunno wat is that all about..

but, i would like to say thanks to God coz God ansewered my prayer already :)

and thanks to Ariel dat he's come back..!! i wish dat u always stay the same X)

Your Face, Your Attendance, Your Atitude is hurting me RiL..!!

it started when my brother gives comment in my quiz..

the quiz is bout "how's your mate looks like?"

my brother comment: "WOW, this is exactly how's ariel looks like, your friend in your toution SSC"

the bad thing is, i just added him the day before that comment appear..

and he accept the request 2hours AFTER the comment had been published..

i dunno whether he's using phone or web. but i guess he read dat comment already..

how can I say dat? hmm, i just know from his reaction after that incident.

and you know wat, he's changed!! it hurts so bad..

the first changes..

T : ril, do you want to copy this modul like the others??

A: hmm, later on may be *flat face* (usually he answers like "ok lah, as long it's not bothering you")

T: r u sure?? hmm coz i wanna copy dis modul for the others too..

A: hmm, ok then *still with no expression*

the second changes..

it happened yesterday..

while i waited for my friends to start the class in the lobby, he came..

when he passed me, he dun say any words, not even look at me..

gosh, do i looks very disgusting in his eyes??

the third changes..

usually he like to join my class after consule with the other teacher..

but yesterday, after he had finish consulting, he did not join mya class..

he went back home..

hmmmffh, WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU?!

is this bcoz you know dat i have a crush on you boy?!

don't you know dat your attitude is hurting me??

i want you to be the same like before..

eventhough there's no place for me in your heart, at least i'm exist in your life ril..

as a close friend maybe, or just a friend..

but not a stranger for you.. (like rite now)

Plis dun change :'(

ShouLD i feel Happy, Sad or Wat?! :(

I dunno wat should i do now..

happy like princess meet her prince..

or crying bcoz thinking dat her prince is too perfect for her??

God, i can't get wat u mean by the incident dat happen tonight..

thank you so much dat U gives the opportunity for me to join his ride..

I really really happy tonight, it's like a miracle for me :)

well, this is de story bout that special moment (for me)..

this incident start when i finish my toution in SSC..

well, there are only 3 peolpe dat entering class today..

me, Ariel and Aziz..

i'm the one who leave dat building first coz i have to catch 'angkot'..

ariel and aziz ride their motorcycle..

while i had walked for a few minutes, aziz passed me by..

he said "hey Tiara, i'm going home yah!!"

and i replied "oh, okok :) "

no longer after dat, Ariel came and passed me..

He did not said anything, did not look at me either..

aih, YOU ARE SO MEAN lah!! <<>

I really fed up with his attitude that time..

then, i continue walking..

HEH?? i was so SHOCK when i saw ariel is in front of me..

i saw him open his bag and searching for something..

so, when i passed him, i ask him..

T: hayo, apa yg ketinggalan??

A: engga, ga ada kok. oh iya, lo pulang naik apa?

T: pake angkot. tuh angkotnya (mbil nunjuk angkot di seberang)

A: hmm, mank alamat lo dimana?

T: In cikunir, jl. jakarta. tau ngga??

A: itu dimana yah? yaudah, ayo bareng aja..

T: serius? ngga ngerepotin?

A: engga kok.

T: okok, tpi gw nebeng mpe bank mandiri aja yah :)

A: bank mandiri ptung kuda 1 kan? ok...

then on the motorcycle..

Oh My God. I dunno wat should i do now..

it just like a dream for me. really, it's a miracle..

Thanks God..!! (hal yg gw pikirin pas di motor)

finally we arrived in the bank Mandiri..

T : Makasih yah, ril :D

A: iya, sama2..

T: sory ngerepotin.

A: iya gpp kok..

can't forget his face lahh >.<

but there sumthing dat makes me sad..

that happen when my mom said "jangan cerita2 ke banyak tmen kamu yah, nanti kamu malah diketawain, bgitu duank pke crita2."

gosh. after that i lost de spirit..

banyak yg lgsung kpikiran di otak gw..

" gw lebay bgt ga sih?? dianterin githu aja senengnya setengah mati!!"

"Ti, lo tuh PD BGT klo sampe mikir ariel punya perasaan yang sama kyak lo!!"

"hey, itu tuh bukan apa2. itu hal yang biasa. sumpah lo lebay abis!"

ahhh, i feel so frustrated lahh..

so many questions in my mind dat makes me feel down, down and down..

and all i do is crying when thinking bout dat incident..

but i'm still happy bcoz of ariel :)