what does LOVE really mean?

still confused bout the meaning of love. is it happening in my life right now or not? i can't decide it coz i still don't understand bout it.

well what is the different between crush and loves actually? i really can't figure it out.

when you want to give the best you can do to the one you like, is it love or is it the thing that you will do when you have a crush?!

sorry if i ask too many questions, i just so confused bout all of dis.

about my feeling, my reaction, his attitude, the way he's treating me, all of that just makes me feel "lost".

experience teach us sumthing rite? bad experience teach us to avoid the same mistake that we've done before. but is it exist in LOVE?

sumtimes, i feel scared to feel love. i am afraid to get hurt like before, i am afraid i take a wrong signal from that boy (too confiidence).

what is you feeling?

if there's sum1 who's like treating you like his girlfriend *sumtimes*, but you can't decide it whether it's only a joke or is it real. i know if he's not serious bout it, but why it has to be me? and why is he doing it so often, so my friends like to flirt us just like we are a couple or something..

i'm not so confortable with this situation actually, it's making me confused. if i didn't act like he act, is like i don't have sense of humor or i'm too serious with the jokes. But, if i keep act like that, i'm sure there will be "a strange feeling" come to me, and i kinda give a special attention to that person. God it's killing me..

not mean to blame or complain about my life. i just feel that i'm hurt enough in love.

i guess i taste all kinds of pain already :(

just don't want to be hurt anymore, at least for this year. just wanna have the one that really "the right one" for me, the one who takes me as i am, the one that i love and also the one that loves me back. :')

but i'm afraid, i haven't met him yet :')

sumtimes this words came out in my mind >> "am i deserved to be loved? does loves exist in my life? is it possible that someday there's a boy came to me and say that he loves me? i guess love does not for the fat and "not pretty girl" just like me!!"

and the most concern things in my mind >> " AM I AGGRESIVE?? DO I LOOK LIKE A CHEAP GIRL? gosh, am i including to those girls who likes to flirting around boys?"

just feel scared and sad if some people thinks that i belong to those girls :'(